The beginning of the end

So there...i've finally decided to end the crazy obsession...
I would have done anything to save the friendship....even if it meant hurting my own ego...
The friendship is too precious to be messed around with...
It would hurt even more if it went on and on and on...


And now that i've end it...i feel LOADS better...i can breathe normally...i can be sane again...and most importantly...i can be myself again!


Still.... xxxxxxx will always be in my heart, cherished forever.
Will never forget the wonderful moments together...

My heart will always be with you....

A weight have finally been lifted off my small shoulders...
What a relief...
Whatever happens from now on, I dont know...
I must say im worried and scared...
I hope I wont live to regret making the move...

Its insane how i kept thinking bout you...got utterly fixated on you...and kinda obsessed bout you!
But I cant help it...
Im a Leo...and when Leos fall for something...they fall hard.
Thats a fact that cant be changed...sigh

Every minute you're not on my sight, I feel tortured beyond words...
But I didnt have a choice!
I had to sacrifice! And sacrifices are always painful :(
Now i can only sulk it all in...
Wonder how much more of this i can take...sigh

If only the feeling is mutual then I'd be sleeping with a smile on my face!
xxxxxxx, although u r far from my sight...u will always be near in my heart...always.

Misery Business

Here it comes again...
Dark clouds of uncertainty...
The verdict has been passed out and its looking shitty...Sigh...
Ive simply "lost" her...
She's gonna be-friend me now...she aint gonna talk to me...she's gonna do the silent treatment on me...
She's in other words...the cause of my misery!
Its not her fault really, it isn't...its mine!
I wish i never had to put myself in this situation at all...
But i did...
And its too late to turn back time...
I've simply...truly...lost her
:'(

Dilemma strikes again....

Hate so much to be in dilemma....
My heart wants to stay but my brain is taunting me to go!
So many pros and cons either side...how to decide?

And then there's this unexpected feeling...
So weird its making me obsessed!
Its the one thing thats making things so difficult for me to decide!
As much as i want to...i need and i have to get away from her....before something really unexpected happens! Oh gosh...something is wrong with me...What the heck am i thinking?!
I cant be that! No..No...it cant be..it really cant!
Its too scary a reality to take in...

I dont wanna live to regret another wrong decision...

"Ya Allah...berilah aku kekuatan untuk menempuhi semua cabaran yang kau berikan padaku, Ya Allah...sesungguhnya kau maha pengampun dan maha penyayang...."