So many questions...no answers...

This is proving ALOT harder than it really should be!
Gosh! Why do i keep torturing myself!
Heart oh heart....please be strong...please im begging you!
Get her out of my freakin head already! PLEASE!
She has alienated me for god knows how long already and i truly think i dont deserve it!
Whats the point caring too much for others when they dont care bout us mutually?!
I seriously dont know whats gotten into her....i dont remember saying anything wrong...i dont remember doing anything wrong to hurt her! SIGH!
So many questions and ifs and buts....but no answers!

Gonna miss her so bad....

She haven't even left and i miss her already! :(
If i were to still be there i would be happily touring with her right now...
But then again..i HAD to make that decision...
So now im just sulking it up, jealously looking at others tour with her and getting close to her....SIGH...

The heart...

still aches..... :(
i miss xxxxxxx so much....
as much as i want to let go and get on with life...i cant lie to myself!
I still miss xxxxxxx! period!
and all i can do is sit and sulk as i watch xxxxxxx from afar...
wishing and hoping xxxxxxx will warm up to me again...like the old days prior to the truth...
Sigh...*Dear Heart..why are u so weak*